1/14/2012 Thorncrag worldsnag

I had written "run 16 miles" on my "what I am going to run today" plan. This was written a few weeks ago.

And what did I actually end up doing today? I invited Jules and her partner into the sunny sun sun of Thorncrag for a ramble.

Does it mean I don't take my conditioning seriously?
Does it mean I am at the mercy of my limitations?
Does it mean I take my training seriously enough to respect the governance of HRH Flexibility?
Does it mean I am choosing to safely remaining goal-less by ignoring any trace of plan?
Does it mean I failed to meet a goal?
Does it mean that I am simply trying to go easy on the shin today so as to hopefully be in better shape by my illustrious 2pm Arctic Bond Brond run tomorrow?

Am I not good enough because I didn't, or couldn't, do it? Or am I safe from loserdom because I didn't try it when I knew it wasn't going to happen?

Does it matter?

If I choose to abstain from spending too much time worrying about this, does that mean my heart isn't in it?

Or does that mean my heart has temporarily moved to higher ground -- and that it will return promptly as soon as the bio/mechanical squall has blown over?

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My friends Dan, Noah, and Jasper played on this album. Dan did the songwriting. And I think it's damn amazing: Wry Climate http://wryclimate.bandcamp.com/ I used to play in a band with Dan and his father (my ex composition professor and advisor), Rick. Great people - and cool "post-old-time" music - but man, has Dan come a LONG way since DXR days! It's been awesome to watch and hear...